BREATHE
I know you think
that I couldn’t have loved you,
But with all the love I had for you
I loved ME more.
I thought you were a stronger man,
I thought you were the man of my dreams,
But it seems
As though my dream did not come true
Because with all the love I had for you
you still did not make it right.
I miss you.
The YOU I loved but,
Not the GUY who intimidated me,
Not the DUDE who scared me,
Not the NIGGA who put his hands on me.
That’s not the life I fought for,
And believe me I did not beat my illnesses to be beat by you.
What right do you have?
Who gave you permission to be my father?
He died.
When I lost him I grabbed on to you
Thinking you were something that you are not.
A MAN…
I laugh now at the situation
Only because I am able to look back
And see where I went wrong.
You were never good enough for me.
I knew you were a liar and I still believed you.
You lied to me from the moment I met you.
I was nothing but good to you. I can honestly say you will never have another ME
no one to treat you like me,
no one to love you like me,
no one to care for you like me.
I was your everything, and you my pain.
my frustration, my hurt, you made me angry,
you made me hate you. I can only hate you because I love you but I cannot love you because you are not worthy of me. You don’t know me. You thought you did. You thought I would accept that bullshit you called love and live with it. That’s where you were wrong. I never needed you. I wanted you. Once the want left you needed to go. WOW!!!! It feels good to be able to BREATHE PEACEFULLY AGAIN.
